Our last encounter was weird, neither you neither I were focused and we didn't try to make it work. It's true, we had fun and it wasn't a painful experience but I decided that I had to turn around and I did it.
I'm sorry that I left you at that time, I'm sorry that I didn't realize how beautiful you are and how entertaining you can be. I'm sorry.
On these last four days I came back to you, and this time I had no expectations. I wasn't trying to achieve anything or to prove that I took the right decision when I left you. No, it was simply because I wanted to relax and take life as it came.
And you received me with open arms, and didn't even mention our last encounter. I was so surprised, I couldn't believe it. It's true, it wasn't perfect... but, will it ever be?
I have only one thing to say to you, I'm sorry.
Sunday, February 24, 2008
Thursday, February 14, 2008
Reaching out/Giving up
I wouldn't say that I'm a terribly social person, in fact I can be classified as a kinda "shy" person. Despite that, outside my country I'm always classified as a social person. Here in Norway the same thing happened, for some reason I'm again classified as a social person, not only that but I'm classified as a very social person.
However everything has its limitations. I can say that I've been trying to reach out people, but so far I could say that I have reach two and I've half reached three more. Which is not bad if you consider what I said in the previous paragraph, but anyways the problem is that people here sometimes simply ignore me. I would prefer somebody telling me "Please stay away from me" than simply ignoring me. Or to say it correctly, politely smiling and avoiding me.
Is it so difficult to be honest and say: "stay away from me"? or is it that difficult to be nice to somebody? The thing that gets me the most is the fact that if I reach people they are very nice to me, but the moment I stop reaching they do not react. Maybe is Scandinavia, maybe it's me but definitively I do not get it. I mean, wouldn't be easier to just be the same all the time? if you are not interested in me trying to establish contact, please say it so. If you are, please try to show some interest, because it is hard to understand what is going on.
But as somebody already told me about Scandinavia: "it is difficult to distinguish between a rock and a person", I didn't believe it at first, but I'm starting to believe it now. Please people from Scandinavia, be a little more "emotional" and try to express your anger, happiness, interest or lack of interest because for somebody like me that is used to be able to understand people based on reactions... I still cannot differentiate people from rocks!
However everything has its limitations. I can say that I've been trying to reach out people, but so far I could say that I have reach two and I've half reached three more. Which is not bad if you consider what I said in the previous paragraph, but anyways the problem is that people here sometimes simply ignore me. I would prefer somebody telling me "Please stay away from me" than simply ignoring me. Or to say it correctly, politely smiling and avoiding me.
Is it so difficult to be honest and say: "stay away from me"? or is it that difficult to be nice to somebody? The thing that gets me the most is the fact that if I reach people they are very nice to me, but the moment I stop reaching they do not react. Maybe is Scandinavia, maybe it's me but definitively I do not get it. I mean, wouldn't be easier to just be the same all the time? if you are not interested in me trying to establish contact, please say it so. If you are, please try to show some interest, because it is hard to understand what is going on.
But as somebody already told me about Scandinavia: "it is difficult to distinguish between a rock and a person", I didn't believe it at first, but I'm starting to believe it now. Please people from Scandinavia, be a little more "emotional" and try to express your anger, happiness, interest or lack of interest because for somebody like me that is used to be able to understand people based on reactions... I still cannot differentiate people from rocks!
Friday, February 8, 2008
Life
This week has been (so far) one of those weeks that you cannot say if it was good or bad. On the good side are the salsa lessons that started last wednesday, so hopefully I will improve my dancing skills (which are not that many, if any at all), and the fact that I finally started a cooking blog (you can visit it here).
On the not so good side we have some work related stuff that is not going as expected. Fortunately nothing too bad, but it took a big toll on me.
I also decided to go to Belgium to Fosdem. Well, actually I'm going to drink beer but my main excuse is to go to Fosdem. I will visit a monastery where they brew the best beer in the world. The strange part is that you cannot get that beer outside the monastery, they do not mass produce and they only sell it on a cafe owned by the monastery and in the monastery itself (more information here).
On the not so good side we have some work related stuff that is not going as expected. Fortunately nothing too bad, but it took a big toll on me.
I also decided to go to Belgium to Fosdem. Well, actually I'm going to drink beer but my main excuse is to go to Fosdem. I will visit a monastery where they brew the best beer in the world. The strange part is that you cannot get that beer outside the monastery, they do not mass produce and they only sell it on a cafe owned by the monastery and in the monastery itself (more information here).
Saturday, February 2, 2008
Today++
I was thinking about naming this post "Thinking about the future" (a mirrorish version of my previous post) but in the end I realized that this is not about the future but about what to do next in my life.
This week was weird, Nokia offered to buy the company where I work and that was unexpected (At least for me). I came here for two reasons:
1. I wasn't having a good time in the US
2. This is a small company that feels just like home
Point 1 is still valid since I'm not in the US anymore, but point 2 is about to become invalid since I'll be working for a very big company.
On the personal side, things are going well. I enjoy my life in Norway and despite some minor "misunderstandings" with norwegian culture, I have nothing to complain.
So if I mix the two things, I'm in some kind of unstable state.
Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.
This week was weird, Nokia offered to buy the company where I work and that was unexpected (At least for me). I came here for two reasons:
1. I wasn't having a good time in the US
2. This is a small company that feels just like home
Point 1 is still valid since I'm not in the US anymore, but point 2 is about to become invalid since I'll be working for a very big company.
On the personal side, things are going well. I enjoy my life in Norway and despite some minor "misunderstandings" with norwegian culture, I have nothing to complain.
So if I mix the two things, I'm in some kind of unstable state.
Or maybe I'm just thinking too much.
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